Free of Pain Meds, not of Pain

Stopped taking all Pain Meds now.

Couldn't stand the Effexor

Couldn't stand the Arthrotec

Still in pain...June 2 is ultrasound on right shoulder.

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Fear of Pain Medicine

The doctor has stopped prescribing the Tridural.

Now I have to take Arthrotec and Effexor.

I am in pain every day now, and worry about what I can do to alleviate the pain without becoming horribly dependent on painkillers.

I am an alcoholic and addict in recovery (13 yrs sober approx) and worry that I will fall back into old habits.

The one difference is, NOW I only want relief from the pain, I don't want to be a zombie.

Please help me, if you have any suggestions, I don't want to take narcotics, but I fear that if this keeps up, that's where this is heading.

Fear of Pain Medicine

Currently, I am taking a drug called Ralivia, or Tridural. It's designated as a non-narcotic.
Sadly, I am exceeding the largest prescribed dose, and I'm still in pain.
I fear I will have to go on narcotic pain medicine
I fear I will be in pain.
I have fear of becoming addicted to the drugs....again, and fear that without them my life will continue to be torment.
Today I have an emergency appointment at the doctor...I'd rather be doing a MILLION other things than be chemically tethered to the damn doctors office.
June 2 I get the shoulder ultrasounded.
Hopefully I can get the shoulder taken care of, that would be a start.
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